27 turning 15

seems like im findin myself gttin bzier n bzier... nt havin enuf time 2 slp, do chores, bathe dog, read mag, blah blah... wanted 2 update dis de other day (abt a week ago...) actually but cant find de time 2 do it till nw... n my eyes r shuttin real sn if i dun gt it done in no time... i juz decided tat if i dun do it i might nid 2 wait till another week then... it's juz sm tots again wich i had... nting great...

age 27 sounds rilly old 2 mi nw... esp im turnin 28 in abt a mth's time... 28 sounds even older cos 30 is approachin sn... it sounds nt veri scary, but juz de ringin reminder tat once rch 30, then 40 will b round de corner... time seems 2 rilly fly... i wonder wat wil hapen 2 mi in future n wen will i leave dis world... n wen i leave, will i go 2 hell or heaven? will i still b able 2 sense myself, knowin tat im still ard n feelin all de pain n joy?? will i b able 2 reincarnate again in2 human? will tere rilly b doraemons in de future? will i reincarnate in2 de futuristic world? wen will de world cum 2 an end?

lots of curiosity owas cum wen im wonderin abt 1 ting n it will then lead 2 de nxt... anyw as i was sayin... 27 turning 15 was actually a "replica" of de movie "13 going on 30" where de main character was brought in2 de future on de day of her 13yr old bday after she made a wish, wanting 2 turn 30... she was still in her 13 wen she gt 2 de future, but wif her 30yrs old body... she gts 2 noe wat she does in de future n tings wich she regrets doin wen she was young n it was like a dream n wen she finally returned 2 her 13, she knew she cnt lead her life wrongly again n she picked herself up frm tere... refer 2 link: Click Here

so i tot of goin bk 2 my past... esp wen i was 15... y 15? b4 15, i cant tink of any regrets tat i wana mk up 2... it was durin n after 15 then i start 2 haf lots of regrets wich i rilly tink i could haf handled veri differently... dis leads mi 2 another shw -- sliding doors... where chosin a different alternative (choice) will lead u 2 a total outcum n future... refer 2 link: http://us.imdb.com/title/tt0120148/

so like i was sayin... if i chose a different paths in de past, will i still end up as wat i m nw? or will everyting b different as like in de movie? wif a different ending? but then i believe in destiny... where god creates our destiny... if tat is so, does it mean tat wicheva path i chose, will i still b destined n end up as wat im nw?

i smtimes oso feel as though im like the characters in the game -- The Sims (http://thesims.ea.com/) as though im being controlled by a player n tat player is god... controllin each n every of my action n feelings n de tings tat i shld do... life is so full of wonders n surprises... is it a cos by god's creation n his play? it's rilly smting wich we will nvr reckon of... so many questions tat i haf... but nvr will tere b a model ans 4 tem... unless god is my fren...