Mind in a Whirl

It's frustrating when you're resting at home and being pestered by phone calls and messages that are simply redundant. Chances of throwing a big "pissful" fuss instead of "peaceful" rest are higher than usual.

Totally hate it when effort is not seen when it is put in. Especially when it's totally taken away and swish, all gone. Totally hated it when people think it's really easy by changing it or taking it out. Just click away! Press a button! It's gone that easily! Why do you need to take so hell of a time? Ya... I took hell of a time to make it look better and to share them with the close ones! If this is the kind of response that I'm going to receive, you can be sure never to see anymore of it here ever again! You really think it's easy? Why don't you do it then?

I totally don't see the reason why there should be hatred in seeing yourself in the cyber world. Unless you really think that you're damn fucking ugly that you shouldn't be seen. Or is it you think you cannot let anyone know your life out there, that's why you better keep yourself away from the public? Untold secret? I hope I didn't expose you else I'll be so sorry...




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Enough of ranting. Ggrr... Super fed-up. Don't ask me why. I'm not going to tell you here.


Recently watched "Quarantine" on vcd and realised that there're really so many viruses around us that are evolving and mutating themselves to grow stronger. Each time humans come up with a vaccine to prevent these viruses from harming us, they're so intelligent, seems as though they know. They start to grow out of it. It's really scary what kind of world we're living in. It's like end-of-world is coming soon and everything around us is trying to show us some signs and warnings but we're not able to do anything. Even if we try to, it seems difficult to work. It's like every god damn movies which we watch are becoming true and we can just sit around to watch ourselves die.

First, there's the movie on saving Earth from a comet or something. Can't really remember the name. Too many of those sorts. Then came a rumour that a moving planet will be passing Earth soon. Type Planet-X and click on search, you'll find every information that you need on all search engines and even You-Tube. According to the rumours, this planet is moving towards Earth. It will not hit us, but pass by. However, the impact is so great it's causing all the catastrophe on Earth. One of them being Tsunami. It's so near we should be able to see it in daylight in mid of 2010. 'What's more, 2-third of us will perish when it pass by Earth. How true? I'm only quoting from what I've read online. I really hope it's not true ços I just bought my flat! Bloody hell! Spend so much, haven't even live in and we are going to die?! WTF?!

Second, there's the movie on Earth being flooded. Yap. That I believe it will be. I always thought that the day which ends is Earth being flooded due to global warming, rise of the sea level due to the melting of ice in the north and south poles, Singapore sinking every minute. I always thought that would be the way, though it might take quite sometime. I always thought that this will only happen to our next-next-next generation maybe? Or maybe by then it's me again ços I believe in recarnation? I never thought of us dying from illnesses untill...

Yes, the outbreak of SWINE flu! That leads me to my third movie. Or movies. It leads me to think of "I am legend" (very recent), "Quarantine" and all the zombie movies. Why? Like I say earlier, all the viruses evolving. First we had SARS which hit us really badly, then the mad cow disease, bird flu and now the swine flu. Things are getting bad and the stuff that we eat are no longer safe. Then the experts atart to experience on new medication and vaccines to help us. Who knows when will it become unsafe and we'll all end up like the half-dead zombies in these shows? This is the least wanted way to die! I want to die pretty, not a half-dead zombie who eats and chew from my loved ones!

Anyway, all these lead to my curiosity. Rumours saying that SWINE is worse than SARS and maybe equivalent to Ebola. I read up from wiki. I always thought that Ebola is long gone and it's a really bad virus that kills people like those kind in "L change the world" (Jap movie). Then when I found out it's another kind of flu-like illness and it's still around, my heart sank. I started to think of pandora's box. Is it that which let out all the viruses to the world? It doesn't scare me that we all have to die one day. It scare me when we do not know when it will happen, how it will happen and we can't do anything about it.




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Enough of that. If one day you know you're gona die soon, what will be the first thing you want to do? For me, I want my own kid 1st. You know what, I told someone about it the other day, guess the response? "You very cruel leh! You know you want to die and world end then you still give birth to a kid and let it suffer and die?" Ggrr... That is so not the response that I'm looking at!! (-_-!)